Blogging at this time isn't really right...neither is me being at the Uni. It's 1am in the morning :s
Anyway reflections...
My moments with God this year have been fluctuating. Ups and downs.
It's almost like beginning of the year, full of energy..end of the year hanging by the thread. It's a really good experience to be away from the comfort zone and be in the UK looking and learning at how people serve God here. The difference experience that I had was really encouraging and refreshing. But at the same time the flames rises and dies quickly. I would say that my walk with God this year had been close yet distant. Close in the sense that I rely on him a lot more, depend on him a lot more. But distant in the sense that I hadn't really grow much. Partly also cos I hadn't been reading.
When I was back in SG during summer busy with the murder mystery event despite the tiredness of my work, I was contented. I was not depending on my own but also on God to provide me with the strength and idea. But since I'm back in the UK the motivation has died. Maybe it's because I'm in a new house with housemate that I talk to and hang out with. With the amount of things I'm involve in I also think I should give some time to them. Resulting in poor attendance in CU and tea & toast. I believe those are just excuses. I don't know why but there is just something missing. Like i'm in between two worlds. It's not that my faith is slipping or what but it's the passion the fire within me seems to be dying.
I guess this is what my Christmas holidays will be...reflections and going back to God's words. Reading up on books that I have put away for the past year. Praying that next year I will serve Him to the fullest.
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