Blogging at this time isn't really right...neither is me being at the Uni. It's 1am in the morning :s
Anyway reflections...
My moments with God this year have been fluctuating. Ups and downs.
It's almost like beginning of the year, full of energy..end of the year hanging by the thread. It's a really good experience to be away from the comfort zone and be in the UK looking and learning at how people serve God here. The difference experience that I had was really encouraging and refreshing. But at the same time the flames rises and dies quickly. I would say that my walk with God this year had been close yet distant. Close in the sense that I rely on him a lot more, depend on him a lot more. But distant in the sense that I hadn't really grow much. Partly also cos I hadn't been reading.
When I was back in SG during summer busy with the murder mystery event despite the tiredness of my work, I was contented. I was not depending on my own but also on God to provide me with the strength and idea. But since I'm back in the UK the motivation has died. Maybe it's because I'm in a new house with housemate that I talk to and hang out with. With the amount of things I'm involve in I also think I should give some time to them. Resulting in poor attendance in CU and tea & toast. I believe those are just excuses. I don't know why but there is just something missing. Like i'm in between two worlds. It's not that my faith is slipping or what but it's the passion the fire within me seems to be dying.
I guess this is what my Christmas holidays will be...reflections and going back to God's words. Reading up on books that I have put away for the past year. Praying that next year I will serve Him to the fullest.
Wednesday, 12 December 2012
Thursday, 18 October 2012
frustration begins
Well things are not really going all smoothly as usual, the world is not perfect.
Few things that I am grateful about is that I got the role of student ambassador, both recruitment and outreach, so i get more jobs offer than only being 1 role. At the same time I get free CRB check with usually cost about £30-40 to do just a basic one. Grateful that i got a good group to work with this year except for 1 person in the group which can be over powering at times, that will be a story for later. I'm also grateful that my mini 'business' has started. Well it's not really a business yet. For those that know me would know that I make jewelry/handicraft and such, well I happen to chance upon a shop off a highstreet that is currently sending handicraft stuff from now till christmas. Long story short, the lady in the store love my work and i'm now placing my items in the shop to sell. Range from earrings, pendants and little animals. Intending to set up a shop online, maybe a blog shop instead of a real website cos it's too troublesome.
Few things that I'm not very happy with myself over the past month since I'm here is that I'm might have gone a bit lazy. Or too lazy. I don't know if it's because I sign myself up to too much commitment that I feel reluctant sometimes. Since I'm back here, I haven't done any tea & toast due to various reasons. Haven't gone to the friends international that I had wanted to go so badly last year. I'm not even putting much effort in the club that I sign up for. I really need to get myself back into shape and start working and focusing on things.
Few things I wish could change, one of which is my job. I really dislike the chinese takeaway that I'm working in now for reason I can't even say. I just feel really heavy after I end my work there and when I'm already feeling really heavy for the day I don't feel like going to work there at all. Really wish I can find another job that I can work on without feeling shitty at the end of it. And the other thing I wish that could change is the only group mate that is too pushy. Not that she isn't working or contributing in the group but she is over doing it. But changing a group mate is not possible so I have to learn to work with her. I'll be fine as long as she don't cross the line.
There are lots of assessments that I need to get down to do as some of the deadlines are in nov. Also I need to start searching for internship/placement. It's not going to be easy but I got to do it.
I just pray for strength and wisdom to do the shoot next week. Being a director is stressful esp when you don't get what you want/have in your mind, now i know.
Few things that I am grateful about is that I got the role of student ambassador, both recruitment and outreach, so i get more jobs offer than only being 1 role. At the same time I get free CRB check with usually cost about £30-40 to do just a basic one. Grateful that i got a good group to work with this year except for 1 person in the group which can be over powering at times, that will be a story for later. I'm also grateful that my mini 'business' has started. Well it's not really a business yet. For those that know me would know that I make jewelry/handicraft and such, well I happen to chance upon a shop off a highstreet that is currently sending handicraft stuff from now till christmas. Long story short, the lady in the store love my work and i'm now placing my items in the shop to sell. Range from earrings, pendants and little animals. Intending to set up a shop online, maybe a blog shop instead of a real website cos it's too troublesome.
Few things that I'm not very happy with myself over the past month since I'm here is that I'm might have gone a bit lazy. Or too lazy. I don't know if it's because I sign myself up to too much commitment that I feel reluctant sometimes. Since I'm back here, I haven't done any tea & toast due to various reasons. Haven't gone to the friends international that I had wanted to go so badly last year. I'm not even putting much effort in the club that I sign up for. I really need to get myself back into shape and start working and focusing on things.
Few things I wish could change, one of which is my job. I really dislike the chinese takeaway that I'm working in now for reason I can't even say. I just feel really heavy after I end my work there and when I'm already feeling really heavy for the day I don't feel like going to work there at all. Really wish I can find another job that I can work on without feeling shitty at the end of it. And the other thing I wish that could change is the only group mate that is too pushy. Not that she isn't working or contributing in the group but she is over doing it. But changing a group mate is not possible so I have to learn to work with her. I'll be fine as long as she don't cross the line.
There are lots of assessments that I need to get down to do as some of the deadlines are in nov. Also I need to start searching for internship/placement. It's not going to be easy but I got to do it.
I just pray for strength and wisdom to do the shoot next week. Being a director is stressful esp when you don't get what you want/have in your mind, now i know.
Wednesday, 3 October 2012
back to life in UK
It's been a while since the last blog.
Going back home over the summer has been great. Meeting up with friends, getting involve in church activities and working in production again. I would say it's been a blessed summer.
Now I'm back in UK. I'm no longer a fresher, now I'm a 2nd year. Living in a new house with a group of friends feels different from last year. Last year doesn't seem very far away. It's only 3-4mths ago. But now it's a new start.
This year I would like to delicate more of my time to GOD and his ministry in bournemouth. At the same time there are some stuff that I would love doing. Horse riding is one. But I still need to get a job. I've believe that God will provide me the things I need and give me a job when the time is right. All I can do now is to depend on him and believe.
In this new term and new academic year I pray for his guidance and his blessing upon my new group mates I pray for patience and acceptance during group meetings and the willingness of everyone to work together. This year isn't going to be as easy as last year and I pray for all the opportunities that are to come.
Dear Lord, in times of needs I come to you. But let me remember that in times of joy i thank you and sing your praise.
Going back home over the summer has been great. Meeting up with friends, getting involve in church activities and working in production again. I would say it's been a blessed summer.
Now I'm back in UK. I'm no longer a fresher, now I'm a 2nd year. Living in a new house with a group of friends feels different from last year. Last year doesn't seem very far away. It's only 3-4mths ago. But now it's a new start.
This year I would like to delicate more of my time to GOD and his ministry in bournemouth. At the same time there are some stuff that I would love doing. Horse riding is one. But I still need to get a job. I've believe that God will provide me the things I need and give me a job when the time is right. All I can do now is to depend on him and believe.
In this new term and new academic year I pray for his guidance and his blessing upon my new group mates I pray for patience and acceptance during group meetings and the willingness of everyone to work together. This year isn't going to be as easy as last year and I pray for all the opportunities that are to come.
Dear Lord, in times of needs I come to you. But let me remember that in times of joy i thank you and sing your praise.
Monday, 28 May 2012
It's summer...
Yes it's summer now in England. The sun is out and everyone is going crazy.
I feel really weird as I didn't really experience spring maybe due to the rain and stuff and now it's summer. Also because I came from the sunny island so having the sun is not something exciting. But in England where it's cold or raining 3/4 of the year, the sun is something every brit look forward to.
Had 2 bbq in a row over the weekend, really good fellowship and catching up with church mates over the bbq as many were mugging during exam period. Now everyone finish and I have 2 more weeks to go. Still I'm thankful I don't have exams, having the project is enough to be stress about. Been thinking about doing internship over the summer for very long and had been asking around but none reply. Finally decided to give up and go back to Singapore. Haven't book my flight yet but have to soon.
Also have to start packing, start buying gifts, start.... arhhhhh :0 ....too many stuff...will do that after I finish my project presentation :p
Best thing living in Bournemouth...the beach...i'll be down at the beach this thurs! yeah! Relax before the big presentation next week.
Honestly I can't wait to be home..i miss asian food, miss my bed, miss everyone in churchies..but i don't miss the weather. Still 1 more month and I'll be back home can't wait. :)
Dear Lord, Thanks for everything this year, many ups and downs, but u have always been there although I may not have always lean and depend on you. You have always been by my side, just waiting for me to depend on you again. Always give me strength and courage to go on. Thanks for just being there. Thanks for every opportunity that you have given big or small. Thanks.
I feel really weird as I didn't really experience spring maybe due to the rain and stuff and now it's summer. Also because I came from the sunny island so having the sun is not something exciting. But in England where it's cold or raining 3/4 of the year, the sun is something every brit look forward to.
Had 2 bbq in a row over the weekend, really good fellowship and catching up with church mates over the bbq as many were mugging during exam period. Now everyone finish and I have 2 more weeks to go. Still I'm thankful I don't have exams, having the project is enough to be stress about. Been thinking about doing internship over the summer for very long and had been asking around but none reply. Finally decided to give up and go back to Singapore. Haven't book my flight yet but have to soon.
Also have to start packing, start buying gifts, start.... arhhhhh :0 ....too many stuff...will do that after I finish my project presentation :p
Best thing living in Bournemouth...the beach...i'll be down at the beach this thurs! yeah! Relax before the big presentation next week.
Honestly I can't wait to be home..i miss asian food, miss my bed, miss everyone in churchies..but i don't miss the weather. Still 1 more month and I'll be back home can't wait. :)
Dear Lord, Thanks for everything this year, many ups and downs, but u have always been there although I may not have always lean and depend on you. You have always been by my side, just waiting for me to depend on you again. Always give me strength and courage to go on. Thanks for just being there. Thanks for every opportunity that you have given big or small. Thanks.
Tuesday, 15 May 2012
boardgames...
Games...one of our favorite thing...i've always wanted to have board games and able to play it with friends or family...my family hardly play anything together except poker cards..
But boardgames has always been expensive...So when monopoly came out in card form call monopoly deal i bought it and played it with my friends...a really fun game but you can only play with 5 people..so i got a 2nd deck and now i can play with a max of 10 ppl...then there's pictionary, pictureka and cranium all in card form which i now own...and since i'm in UK i've decided that getting boardgames here is so much cheaper than in SG so my boardgames investment have officially begin.
My first few boardgames are lego creationary, jungle speed and monopoly nightmare version!! There's going to be a lot more as the years goes and of cos within my budget...i'm dying to buy the cranium wow game which cost $70 in SG and £25 in UK..$20 cheaper if i get it in UK...thus the reason why i'm dying to buy...well maybe next year...when i manage to earn more $$...for now i'm contented...
Can't wait to get my hands on the nightmare version of monopoly...!!!
But boardgames has always been expensive...So when monopoly came out in card form call monopoly deal i bought it and played it with my friends...a really fun game but you can only play with 5 people..so i got a 2nd deck and now i can play with a max of 10 ppl...then there's pictionary, pictureka and cranium all in card form which i now own...and since i'm in UK i've decided that getting boardgames here is so much cheaper than in SG so my boardgames investment have officially begin.
My first few boardgames are lego creationary, jungle speed and monopoly nightmare version!! There's going to be a lot more as the years goes and of cos within my budget...i'm dying to buy the cranium wow game which cost $70 in SG and £25 in UK..$20 cheaper if i get it in UK...thus the reason why i'm dying to buy...well maybe next year...when i manage to earn more $$...for now i'm contented...
Can't wait to get my hands on the nightmare version of monopoly...!!!
Saturday, 12 May 2012
Friday, 11 May 2012
时间飞逝,唯一不变是上帝
转眼间就快一年了。在过一个月大学第一年就读完了。这期间不管是心情还是心灵方面都起起伏伏的但是现在可以算是习惯了。四月的假期让我想了很多也反省了很多。
有人常说，人不要总是回头看，要向前看才可以看到未来。但是有时回头看才会发现原来生命中所发生的每一件事都有它的原因。原来上帝早已为我预备。从三年前我进入新传媒开始我的未来上帝早已为我计划好了。虽然我现在还不知道要如何在传媒界宣扬耶稣的名但我相信两年后的今天我会有答案。
就像是十年前，我从来没有想过会到国外读书，更没想过会读电视制作。导演，制作人，这些工作从来没有在我的世界里出现过。就短短的十年我从想当数学老师，到想当股票经纪，到现在想当导演，梦想一直随着成长而改变。在过十年我的梦想会不会在因着时间和成长再有所改变我也不知道。唯一可以肯定的是不管梦想如何的改变，那梦想里一定会有耶稣上帝的存在。
这一年的心灵旅程真的是走过才知道辛苦。同时也是因为走过才知道上帝早已走在我前面，早已为我预备。
有人常说，人不要总是回头看，要向前看才可以看到未来。但是有时回头看才会发现原来生命中所发生的每一件事都有它的原因。原来上帝早已为我预备。从三年前我进入新传媒开始我的未来上帝早已为我计划好了。虽然我现在还不知道要如何在传媒界宣扬耶稣的名但我相信两年后的今天我会有答案。
就像是十年前，我从来没有想过会到国外读书，更没想过会读电视制作。导演，制作人，这些工作从来没有在我的世界里出现过。就短短的十年我从想当数学老师，到想当股票经纪，到现在想当导演，梦想一直随着成长而改变。在过十年我的梦想会不会在因着时间和成长再有所改变我也不知道。唯一可以肯定的是不管梦想如何的改变，那梦想里一定会有耶稣上帝的存在。
这一年的心灵旅程真的是走过才知道辛苦。同时也是因为走过才知道上帝早已走在我前面，早已为我预备。
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