frustration begins

Well things are not really going all smoothly as usual, the world is not perfect.

Few things that I am grateful about is that I got the role of student ambassador, both recruitment and outreach, so i get more jobs offer than only being 1 role. At the same time I get free CRB check with usually cost about £30-40 to do just a basic one. Grateful that i got a good group to work with this year except for 1 person in the group which can be over powering at times, that will be a story for later.  I'm also grateful that my mini 'business' has started. Well it's not really a business yet. For those that know me would know that I make jewelry/handicraft and such, well I happen to chance upon a shop off a highstreet that is currently sending handicraft stuff from now till christmas. Long story short, the lady in the store love my work and i'm now placing my items in the shop to sell. Range from earrings, pendants   and little animals. Intending to set up a shop online, maybe a blog shop instead of a real website cos it's too troublesome.

Few things that I'm not very happy with myself over the past month since I'm here is that I'm might have gone a bit lazy. Or too lazy. I don't know if it's because I sign myself up to too much commitment that I feel reluctant sometimes. Since I'm back here, I haven't done any tea & toast due to various reasons. Haven't gone to the friends international that I had wanted to go so badly last year. I'm not even putting much effort in the club that I sign up for. I really need to get myself back into shape and start working and focusing on things.

Few things I wish could change, one of which is my job. I really dislike the chinese takeaway that I'm working in now for reason I can't even say. I just feel really heavy after I end my work there and when I'm already feeling really heavy for the day I don't feel like going to work there at all. Really wish I can find another job that I can work on without feeling shitty at the end of it. And the other thing I wish that could change is the only group mate that is too pushy. Not that she isn't working or contributing in the group but she is over doing it. But changing a group mate is not possible so I have to learn to work with her. I'll be fine as long as she don't cross the line.

There are lots of assessments that I need to get down to do as some of the deadlines are in nov. Also I need to start searching for internship/placement. It's not going to be easy but I got to do it.
I just pray for strength and wisdom to do the shoot next week. Being a director is stressful esp when you don't get what you want/have in your mind, now i know.

back to life in UK

It's been a while since the last blog.

Going back home over the summer has been great. Meeting up with friends, getting involve in church activities and working in production again. I would say it's been a blessed summer.

Now I'm back in UK. I'm no longer a fresher, now I'm a 2nd year. Living in a new house with a group of friends feels different from last year. Last year doesn't seem very far away. It's only 3-4mths ago. But now it's a new start.

This year I would like to delicate more of my time to GOD and his ministry in bournemouth. At the same time there are some stuff that I would love doing. Horse riding is one. But I still need to get a job. I've believe that God will provide me the things I need and give me a job when the time is right. All I can do now is to depend on him and believe.

In this new term and new academic year I pray for his guidance and his blessing upon my new group mates  I pray for patience and acceptance during group meetings and the willingness of everyone to work together. This year isn't going to be as easy as last year and I pray for all the opportunities that are to come.

Dear Lord, in times of needs I come to you. But let me remember that in times of joy i thank you and sing your praise.